A Tough Few Months

I'm not going to lie; the last few months have been tough, really tough. It took me quite some time to feel like I was beginning to move on from the second miscarriage. It didn't help that the expulsion lasted for weeks after the MVA procedure. Then the whole waiting game starts again; waiting for the next normal period, waiting to see what happens.

I think about wanting to have a second baby every day. This, together with the worry about having another miscarriage has led me to have really bad anxiety, and it became quite bad in the months following the second mis. I saw a therapist/psychologist a few times and it helped to talk to someone else. She helped me acknowledge that whatever happens down the track is out of my control; if another miscarriage does happen, then it is what it is but there's really no use worrying about it now. Much easier said than done, but I'm trying! I'm also trying to do more 'self-talk' to push the anxious thoughts out of my head when they come. I'm finding that listening to music more is helping too. I also did an acupuncture session, which I hadn't had for years since I used it to treat my sciatica when we lived in London, though I'm not sure how effective it was as I couldn't really feel it, though maybe that means it was good?  

I'm hoping that things start to happen again soon, and that we are given some hope that we will have another baby.